puisi Rangga

Aku lari ke hutan, kemudian menyanyiku
Aku lari ke pantai, kemudian teriakku
Sepi… Sepi dan sendiri aku benci.
Aku ingin bingar. Aku mau di pasar.

Bosan aku dengan penat,
dan enyah saja kau, pekat!

Seperti berjelaga jika aku sendiri
Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh

Ahh.. ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang
di tembok keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya?
Biar terderah,
atau… aku harus lari ke hutan belok ke pantai?

Sepi… Sepi dan sendiri aku benci.
Aku ingin bingar. Aku mau di pasar.

Bosan aku dengan penat,
dan enyah saja kau, pekat!

it reminds me of...

how much it hurts.
how you said it.
i can still remember how pain it was.
no matter how or what i do,
i know that i hated you so much.

thanks for all you have done,
it hurts so much that i will never forgive you.
i'm not playing any game,
but i know i'm winning,
for losing someone like you.
just like you.

i wish there will be no more you in my life.
for all i have done,
you spit it all out,
telling the whole world,
how great you are,
and how awful others could be.

thanks.
for that, i thank god for showing me the truth.

;)

i have a whishlist.
places where i really want to visit.
hopefully soon. with my beloved one.

1. Paris, France (i've been there. but i want more. as honeymoon perhaps)
2. Amsterdam, Netherlands
3. Agra, India
4. Hawaii, USA
5. Bali, Indonesia
6. Sipadan, Malaysia

and more to come
to be continued.

aktiviti masa lapang

antara idea-idea aktiviti selepas quitting gym:

1. squash

2. swimming

3. wallclimbing

4. horseriding

lagi? hmm takde idea dah..

februari 2011

mission:

1. 50mm lens.

2. sewing class.

3. more sewing ;)

it's 2011!!!

happy new year!

:)

resolutions resolutions resolutions.

as usual :)

what about mine for this year?

hmm. yet to think.

but for sure, in the must haves list:

1. lose weight

2. lose weight

3. lose weight

:) pretty simple. been there for ages, but never succeed. we'll see if this year will be one successful-weight losing-year.

2010, i'll cherish you!

as we have seen.
2010 went real crazy for me.
no room for mistakes.
no room for forgiveness.
thats how some people take it.

as for me,
it was a year
where i learnt a lot.
those includes everything.
most of it; dealing with life.

i've learnt what a friendship meant.
what we treasure in friendship doesn't mean we will get the same in return.

i've learnt how to deal with people around.

motivational books really helps.

i need to read more.

i have become more mature.

in a sense, which probably only me knows, what defines maturity.

thats not by theory, but thats more on how we deal with it in our lives.

sure things;

never takes things for granted.

there is no second chance in life,

and never take chances.

learn to love yourself more than you love others.

it's difficult to get friends who will cry together with you,

but they'll be there when theres things to laugh about.

its time to start a new chapter of life.

we shall now forget the past, to live for the present and dream the future.

for the past wont be coming back,

but it has taught us.

lets learn to forgive and forget.

for once, and that will keep you peace of mind.

goodbye 2010.

bila pilih kawan, sama macam pilih cinta.

mak kata;

jangan pilih orang yang kita cinta.

tapi pilih orang yang sayangkan kita.

sama.

kalau pilih kawan,

jangan cari orang yang kita nak kawan dengan dia.

sebaliknya, pilih orang yang nak kawan dengan kita,

dan menerima kita sedia ada.

sebab nanti, mereka akan tinggalkan kita,

untuk orang yang mereka pilih untuk berkawan,

bukan untuk orang yang pilih untuk berkawan dengan mereka.

jangan tertipu.

kenapa?

Kenapa ada orang, bila bercakap;
Suka bercakap tentang kekurangan orang?
Suka bercakap menyatakan kesalahan orang?
Suka bercakap tentang kehebatan diri?
Suka bercakap tentang kebaikan perilaku sendiri?
Suka bercakap mengagungkan diri sendiri?

Apa maknanya kalau hanya bercakap tentang keburukan dan kekurangan orang?
Adakah diri sendiri adalah yang terbaik?

Atau sebenarnya,
Memotivasi diri sendiri?
Apa sebenarnya?

quote selamat pagi

the best way to escape from the past is not to avoid it or forget it but accept and forgive it :)-KA

you know what, i think you have better life tho without me. bright future. don't wait for me. its illegal. you can't wait for someone who can't love you back. :'( don't try make me feel guilty.-KN