dramaqueen

um.
normally we can judge people by how they act.
even if you are a dramaqueen.
and sometimes,
taking things deep inside isn't that good afterall.
it jeopardizes lives.
well, if its not you, but a bit of someone else.

so, think before you act.
choose the people you hang around thoroughly.
people might say you are picky.
but, that's reality.

some scenes made you thought of putting yourself in a cave, all alone.
or just swim under the sea, all alone..
when you found out,
when you need someone, they will just go away and leave you alone.
that's reality. it happens everywhere.

the event

made me stressed out.
i don't know if its a sign of hating or menyampah or what.
but i really hate it.
and i don't know if i'm hating the situation or the person.

case 1:
me : XX 1, jom tengok wayang. let's watch comedy romantic jom?
XX 1 : alaa.. taknak laa.. i nak tengok dengan my boyfriend.. lagipun i have no time, need to spend my times with him.

*ok fine. this is sh*t.

case 2:
me : XX 2, jom tengok movie kat gardens. i heard it's special. and ada special treatment. tak pernah pegi sana..
XX 2 : taknakla..i pegi sana with my bf je. lagipun i dah pegi dah.

*hmh. bf is much much more important than a friend. wei. kalau kau breakup, jangan cari aku!

case 3:
me : XX 3, jom dinner sama malam ni. lama tak dinner with you. dah lama tak makan best with you.
XX 3 : oh, tak boleh la. malam i nak dinner with my bf. lagipun i dah jarang klua malam kalau bukan dengan my bf. and i pun kena balik awal.

*okay fine. no one would bother to spend their time with me.

case 4 :
me : XX 4, jom lepak harini.we have breakfast then we go shopping jom?
XX 4 : umm.. harini tak boleh. i breakfast with my bf. nanti pun nak lunch dengan dia. then dia ada meeting. time dia meeting boleh la kejap, tapi after meeting i nak jumpa dia lagi.

*wtf!

so, kesimpulannya;
AM I A LOSER WHO DOESN'T DESERVE YOUR TIME?!?!?!

how much

how much i wanted to go to UK to visit my cousin, Hazim
to Scotland to visit my friend, Mysara
to Melbourne to visit Anis,
please Lord, let me be there.
i need time for myself. i really do.

sorry wei, if this hurt

tapikan,
i came to realized
people who keeps on changing their mind
cakap putar belit
kejap A, kejap B,
are those people
who stays in rumah koro,
berkawan dengan kawan-kawan yang
tiada mentaliti maju.
because those people
just don't have the sense of independent-ness
they don't know what does resposibilities meant
they don't hold on their words,
they are the people who doesn't have the facts,
and they just live life as it is,
without thinking
and without knowing
the rule of life, the law of the world.
those are the people.

so, i thought,
tak salah, bila ada orang kaya yang berlagak
mungkin gaya berlagak, tapi we never know,
sebab, probably, dah pernah kena,
with those with low mentality peoples.
and it's not easy.

well, i am not saying i am high-class ke apa.
i know where i stand,
but, people, come on,
educate yourself.
jangan jadi macam yang koro tu.
because people wouldn't want to deal with you,
you will never able to control your anger,
your emotion.
and people who can't control emotion and anger
are the losers.
believe me.
orang yang marah dan mengekspreskan kemarahan pada orang tersebut
telah menjatuhkan maruah sendiri.
maruah beb!
so, jangan terpekik terlolong, terjerit terpekik,
sememangnya, maruah anda terletak pada tapak kaki sendiri dan dipijak-pijak.
dan,
kalau nak mendoakan orang,
doakanlah yang baik-baik.
bukan dengan lafaz "halal haram"
sebab itu lagi lah membuktikan
bahawa anda mempermainkan agama sendiri.

so, sorry if this hurt.
tapi i am sure,
the person wont read this post.
but others, think of it.

and do comment. i need those comments.

i heard

stand on your own feet.
that's another rule of life.
sebab even your loved ones will keep on hurting you.
and, memang resam manusia
memuji then menghina.
lambung tinggi-tinggi,
dan lepaskan, biar jatuh, orang keliling akan tengok je.

i heard it right.
safe your ass.
tak payah sibukkan orang lain.
and i've thought, it's true.

and girls, check this out;
http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/sex/8-dating-mistakes-even-smart-women-make-1286935/

time to recharge

time to find new friends.
time to get new hobby.
time to generate wealth.
hmm...

i'll see you in heaven.
living life as it is.
things happens.
life changes.
imperfection builds maturity.