help pleeaaaseee~

i really have to manage my financial.
it's getting critical.
please help me.

everything needs sacrifice.
but to me,
the only thing i'll sacrifice the most is L.O.V.E!
i'm pretty sure.

i'm willing to sacrifice
my sleep.
my time.
my rest.
my social life.
just for a feeling called L.O.V.E.

hebat penangan cinta.
sangat hebat.

cinta itu memang menyakitkan.
walaupun pada hati yang dah kena gam gajah.

life is not a fairytale.
no one will end up happily ever after.
no one.

tapi, kan...

selalu orang cakap,
kena bersosial, supaya senang dapat kawan.
nak tau je,
kalau pergi majlis kawin orang,
banyak tak jumpa pasangan hidup?
macam tak pernah dengar.

tapi, kan..
kalau bersosial yang kena mengena dengan hobi,
selalu dapat..
macam gym ke,
memanjat gunung ke,
diving ke...
orang dah ramai ketemu jodoh pilihan hati kat tempat macam tu.

tapi,
saya tak dapat pun?

statistik

ni bukan statistik swine flu ke apa.
tapi kan.
cuba kira..
since year 2009,
i've been falling for... 1, 2, 3 guys!
averaging once in 2 months!

so, i'm actually bukanlah memilih sangat.
and actually easily fall for someone.
so, takde bf jugak sampai harini, apa namanya?
pathetic kan.

seriously kena mandi bunga.
dengan daun, tangkai, akar semua sekali.
nak kasi luck kat badan.
rasanya mujarab tak?
sebab dah pernah mandi bunga yang bunga sahaja.
so, kena try ramuan lain pulak.
sebab yang tu tak menjadi.

M: hati yang entahkan hidup entahkan mati.

ini ungkapan yang sangat mendalam.
dan pasti.
ini berlaku kepada umat-umat yang entah;
tidak memahami perasaan dan hatinya sendiri.

apa ciri-ciri lelaki idaman korang?

please.please.please.

please.
don't ever force me to do what i don't like to do.
because i'm not that type of person.
i'll just back off when i see you if that happens.
and will forever keep distance.
stop whatever you've started.

confused.

i am confused.
more than ever.
seriously.
i know, you created another human who doesn't exist.
i knew that. you're the same two person, two different person with two different character.
please stop doing it if you want us to last long.
i am in love with the character you've created.
whoever you are, thank you for making my life happy.
eventhough for just a short while.
and it's a fake happiness.
thank you.

the art.

the art of flirting.
yes.
i need to get the skill.
i need to practice.
i really need to be skillfull in this.
really.