semakin

semakin cuba untuk memahami, semakin kita takkan faham.
semakin kita cuba bersatu, semakin akan terpisah jauh.
itu realiti kehidupan.

a need to

a need to fall in love.
weh. i've never been deeply in love with a person who i love. ehehe
(ni penyakit lepas tengok korean drama cintan cintun. layan~)

thanks a million

zillion thank you to my dearlings who had made my birthday a memorable one.
thank you for the lunch at fullhouse, sunway pyramid
thank you for the dinner at bumbubali, puchong
thank you for making my day meaningful by sleeping over at my place
and when i woke up in the morning,
they were there to spend another meaningful day.
thank you for the karaoke, which made everyone present sing,
wannie, mira and ash >> wannie and mira selalu tanak nyanyi.
thank you for the evening @ hot air ballon fiesta, putrajaya.
wannie for the dinner at McD, sunway.
i love you girls!!!

and i learnt,
celebrating my birthday with the girls,
and without outsiders,
were much more interesting and fun.
:)
thank you so much.
and...
i am sorry if i can't do the same thing for all of you on your birthday.
how much i appreciate the celebration they made up for me.
thank you, thank you so much!!!

rule no. 2

jangan terlalu cinta/suka/gembira. sebab nanti akan menangis sebab merana.

* i need to get 100 rules..if possible.. :) hehe

rule of life.

rule no 1.
- never sign up apa-apa program yang memerlukan komitment. because we wont be able to commit. percayalah!

a need

a need tau.
bukan wanting.

i am stressed.
therefore,
i need a scandal.
siapa sukarela?!

* perhatian : sesiapa yang dah applied, application tak akan dilayan. sekian terima kasih.

hm.what else...

like seriosly..nothing can be done.
i am bored.
bored of what i am going through.

and nothing can change that.
and i've learn't something.

hey,
if you ever wanted to be friend to someone because
you really adore them or admire them,
trust me,
one day, you'll get to be friend with them.
but,
one thing for sure
you have to reserve a heartbroken, for yourself.
because they will leave you one day,
for a person they wanted to be friend with.
and you'll left
alone, as always.

and i regret for not having many friends.
i do.

is it better to have few true friends or a bunch of just friends?
but if you have few,
they are just the few.
if you have bunch,
there's always people around you.
so, which one?

hm

i just got to know;

even if you have many friends; ie trillion friends,
you will always be lonely.

yes. i think that is true.

i found out..

jarang nak jumpa kawan yang akan ada bersama kalau kita bersedih.
kesimpulannya...
kawan cuma akan ada bila kita bergembira.
because,
what i realised,
trough the time i was really down,
i was really sad,
the only people had been around me,
are the people who doesn't know i am in sorrow and darkness.
and if the people who knows my pain,
they will let me be alone.
or people who will be with me,
are the people who will ask me some favor,
for their benefits.
be it they are happy or had made me happy.
but at least those people cheer me up somehow.
the only people who will be with us when we really need accompany
are
the people who loves us.
only.
if they are friends, and no love in the friendship,
they will treat us like nobody.
other than that,
nobody cares.

am i right or wrong?
and which do i fall in?

just a thought.

i was always told to be a good girl.
always.
i was told to study hard.
be a smart girl, and that will ensure my bright future.

tapi..
as time goes on...
i can see..
that my friends who are worse than me,
who scored lesser than mine,
are experiencing a better life than mine.

how do we relate this actually?
even i scored less than the genius in school,
is now having a better life than them.
that one i am thankful of.
and i am blessed with what i am getting now.
and praying for a better ones as days goes on.

tapi..
i just don't understand.
why did parents asked their children to study so hard?
and the kids has got no life during their childhood because they are working hard
to fulfill their parents' wish.
can't they just let their kid live a normal life?

i always wanted to know
how this things work?

and i am certain
that people who drops out in school
can survive better wherever they go.
that's for sure.
because they always ended up to be a better person.
correct me if i am wrong.