stucked*

i woke up this morning with a weird feeling.
*sigh*sigh*sigh*

this weird feeling. it's been a year. exactly 1 year. the memories has fades away. and the feeling has now changed. haha~ ohhh yaa.. pagi-pagi bangun dengan perasaan jiwang~ ahahah~ i have no idea why. why? why? why?

at this point of time, i declare that.. i NEED someone to be beside me! not that i want. but i neeeeeedddd!!! really need someone! hurgh~ *sigh*

ohh..today.. hari yang bosan. bosan. bosan.

a year ago.
i felt sad. nothing else can challenge.
i can't smile. i can't talk. i don't know how to face it.
i felt empty.
i felt alone.
i felt thrown away.
i felt like no one appreciates me.
i can't stop crying.
i just can't do anything else at all.
i thought i can't stand that challenge god treat me.
i've been hoping and singing this song, by avril.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

and he's really gone and never comes back. never. never.
he left me questioning.
he left me alone.
he never explain.
it's obvious that he left and he was so happy at that moment.
i never wanted to remember him anymore.

after a year.
i'm now recovered.
i live a happy life.
i just need someone to replace him.
i hope Allah hears this and give me a precious one.. the best one..
i'm praying hard to get the best one.