erk. ok....

i read this one post.
i think now i should start considering.
so that no more "bertepuk sebelah tangan". yeah i know.

it's from Cleo. some month in 2005 edition. yeah. ages.
no i realize that that person is just not onto me. thanks to the post. it really opened my eyes and made me realize.

"he's just not that into you!!!!"

thanks. now i know.

i know...

i thought i posted quite a lot that day. and never thought i would still have this much idea to blog. haha.

i've been complaining quite a lot lately. i know.
sorry to mira, wannie and wan.
i can't help it! sorry guys..

i've been thinking a lot lately. yeah. about this. i've not much friends to hang out with. my friends are just the girls. and that's it. huh. i'm bored at home. alone. every single days thinking what should i be doing. huh. what else can be done? i've no life. just stay at home. yeah. just like what i've posted before. just blogging. online. that's it.

*sigh*sigh*sigh*

i just don't know what to do. i need to think of some hobbies. some new hobbies for me. like i've been thinking a few. just no idea who should i go with. yeah. i've no friends in common like all these.

my dad wants me to continue playing golf. yeah. it's been a while since i last went on green. oh driving range at least. *sigh* i've lost my spike shoes. and never bother of getting new one anymore. takde gang nak main laaa.. :(

i wanted to do horse riding. but it's kinda risky he said. *sigh* again. is it really a risky thing? my intention is just to horse ride. macam jalan-jalan instead of walking, but this time horse ride. why can't i??? huh~

hmm.. futsal sounds good. a good exercise i should say. but the fact is, i never played futsal before! haha~ takde kawan nak main jugak!

what else can i do? i just need to find for the circle of friends. what a life i'm going through.

*sigh*sigh*sigh*

j.u l.y part 4

next day after an outing with no'or, we went shopping again. but this time not so far away :) OU je. but puas hati!

at first, me and wannie. window shopping. nothing to buy since we just had a shopping spree day before. nothing caught our eye :) haha~ but then.. the excitement was later on... we had ice-cream waffle. ouch. nak makan sedap-sedap je :) nothing yang tak sedap. ash and mira came later. uhhh~ best best. the we had carles jr for dinner :) thanks to the girls for the dinner... makan puas!

@ Carles Jr

then balik rumah :) yeah. another meet up.

then continued week after. it was monday, 21st July.

last outing with wannie during her sem break. she's leaving for medan soooooonnnn!!! uhhhh~
we had lunch at first :) kedai mane tah. near her place. sedap gile okay! sedap sedaaaappp!!! :) then OU again!!! again. i did my shopping. tak puas lagi. walhal the tops sume tak pakai pon lagi :) hahahaha~nvm. first time in my lifetime i spent that much amount of money! it was a lot! bought myself 2 jeans, 2 tops, 2 sandals and 4 earrings! huh.banyaaaakkk sangat sangat!

so, dah penat. went for a drink at coffee bean. there was where we had a very very very long chat. almost 4 hrs sitting on the sofa :) i think the baristas could even heard us and knows whatever stories and gossips we talked about! haha~ well, a great day indeed :) thanks wannie! you've done a good job this holiday! a really good one! i enjoyed the whole month! thank you sooo muchhh!! muahhhhxxx~

*hugs*

oh ya. and i'm gonna buy the paris hilton bag soon! :) cantik kan wannie? heee~

j.u l.y part 3

okay. next. nothing exciting for the next 9 days :)

on day 10th after the exciting picnic..

14th July:

finally. something to do! :) shopping with wannie. and later no'or joined us! :) heee~best giler! i did the shopping and they did the window! i bought 6 tops. 2 from bossini, 2 from mng and 2 from p&co. no regret! i'm totally satisfied! :) heee~happy sangat!

then no'or joined us. we had lunch at Chillis. Bintang Walk. uhhh~sedap-sedap sumenye. had a simple talk. it was raining then. while waiting for the day to gets brighter, photo-taking session like usual and gossiping :) no'or really can join us! well, never had a long talk with no'or. i guess we were just classmates back then. nothing much to say about the old days. tak baik sangat time skolah dulu. but he is one we can count on if we need someone nak berborak!haha~then, 1st time stepping our 2 feet on pavillion! all three of us!!! hahaha~malunye.. tapi excited!

at Chillis:

nothing much there. we decided to J.CO :) makan n minum. for like 2 hrs chatting lagi.. so many things to catch up! lagi pulak no'or is is czech republic. macam-macam. he has so many things to tell. and lots of things we shared that day.. :)

J.CO no'or belanja :)

a fine day. a good one. thanks to wannie and no'or. they made my day!!!

j.u l.y part 2

so, now start with another good event of the month. :)

this event happened on the 5th of July!!!

we went off for a picnic. not everyone were able to join since not everyone are just freaking free like myself :) haha. only me, wannie, mira and ash. nana joined us a bit later. but no photos of them until the agreed me to post the photos :) only some unrelated are only able to be posted. this is the big event of the holidays. it's sem break actually. the reason we made it on saturday was actually hoping everyone will be able to join. but sadly, last minute cancellations and all. how if, how if it's again cancelled?! haha i'll be eating the cupcakes on my own la then! haha~

the menus:
wannie : home made potato salad
mira : home made roti jala
ash : sausages, home made rebus/goreng. tak ingat dah. hihi. (sorry ash)
myself : sandwiches

the venue: sungai/air terjun at Janda Baik, Pahang (it's more like sungai i guess)

really had fun on that day! mandi manda.. makan-makan.. and i bought them birthday cupcakes. :) it's also a celebration. i just don't know when to celebrate. the girls celebrated my birthday back in march. ahhah. sorry girls. just beli cupcake je.. tak sempat la nak buat benda lain.. and really can't organise a better one :) and i really hope u girls enjoyed it!

the cupcakes i bought them :)

view from the waterfall..

then we continued to enjoy the day with the kite flying :) in kepong. at the taman rekreasi i guess :) we bought a kite for all of us. it flew high! :) setinggi cita-cita kami! i knew it! but i think mostly ash flew the kite and made it high up! others just sit there watching and photo-taking session like usual. ahhah~ only ash knows how to do it :) then after main layang-layang, again makan-makan. makan the left-over foods. and then head back home :)

kite flying session :)

a happy day! :)

j.u l.y part 1

july had been a mega sale, mega holidays, mega outings, mega enjoyment, mega excitement for me! :) a nice pleasant month i should say. everything went well.. everything goes like what it was planned!

it started since the very first few days of the month! :)

it was a get together month. i've been meeting peoples i haven't met for quite some times.

3rd July:
a dinner with awatiff and ika. too bad no photos were taken on that day. how could i forget such important thing. we were busy chatting and listening to awatiff :) she'd been that talkative and she still is that talkative :) i did enjoy the night. three of us had dinner at TGI Section 14. awesome! and i'm hoping for more. earlier on sunday, which was 29th june i went to see anis. her sister's wedding which me n ika were late. so, just went to their home and had small dinner there. only god knows how segan i was. oh my! malu malu malu. definition of malu was on that day! haha~so, left mysara, marissa and nad yang still tak jumpe lagi. and taktau bile nak jumpe.. i guess we'll have to wait for the next hari raya open house by ika. haha~

and.. that day was also ucu's birthday!!! :) i called her and she invites us to join her shopping next day! weeohoooo~shopping! mega sale has now begun... haha~

4th July:
yeah. the invitation. how could i forget. so, the day really starts with shopping! it's shopping day! :) cool thing happened was... everything was free! haha~ucu bought us what we want. and i bought new pair of sandal. it's Andre Valentino. haha~ucu sponsored! ohh sayaaaannngggg ucu! for raya.. well, the preparation must be good eventhough i have no idea how is it gonna be on raya this year. maybe working. uhhh.. but its okay.

yeah. and that was KLCC :)

photos taken at KLCC:

photo of me and ucu!! :) HAPPY BRITHDAY UCU!!!!

next stop is Cineleisure for me. a tea time break and a lunch sort of at Tony Roma's. with Capt Ali Ridza and Aquila. well, it was suppose to be my treat. it's just a compliment for Capt Ali. he thought me a lot during my line training :) Tony Roma's was aquila's idea. the food were awesome! sedap gilerrrr!! and kenyang gilerrr!!!! then there was. makan sedap then balik. hm.. curve looks very cozy la weekend daytime :)

Capt Ali Ridza :)

then we continued. malam with ucu and family, went for ucu's birthday dinner :) at Lala Tomyam. in KL. sedap gilerr.. another treat of the day, left me perut penuh makanan! we had nasi and tomyam with other side dishes. sedap sedap sedaaaaappppp!!!!

few shots at dinner. LongCu's treat! :)

so, after dinner we head back home. mata kuyu. then i have to prepare for tomorrow :) a big day for me!!!

friends or friends?

ok now. i just need to ask a question. are we friends?
haha. yeah. it's not a big deal now. but it used to be a big deal sometimes back then. when a secret is a secret. but you treat it as "a secret to be shared with the whole world". you know what? i'm pissed off with you! yes. particular you! i know you know who you are! i'm lucky to have friend like another one. because she's one who keeps my secrets tight. you know who you are and you absolutely knows what you have done!

so, in related to this what happened, i'm not going to share much with you. you're one who i won't trust ANYMORE!!!! if i were to be such rude, i'll never let you come closer.

to whom it may concern, and to others, when i say a secret, it means secret. treat a secret as a secret. or else, don't bother to be my friend or what ever. i have lots of secret and when i share, means you're a friend of mine. or else, just go away~

here i do..

i dedicate the day for blogging if i'm not called up. i'm on standby right now :)
let me briefly describe what i want to blog. :) since i'm a bit forgetful nowadays. hihi~

erm. meeting ika n awatif. shopping, tony romas, picnic, shopping, outing with no'or. shopping again with wannie. then some thoughts of the day by wan. haha~k i think thats all. all things happened in july 2008 :)

and today:

25th JULY 2008 : HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN! :) aka EG. haha. you're getting older.

wannie sayang~

wannie dah balik medan tengah hari tadi.
so, no more shopping. no more jalan-jalan. no more loitering around with wannie.
i'll be missing the day we had a talk petang-petang kat coffee bean OU. i'll be missing the times i spent with you shopping. i'll be missing everything! i'll be missing you sayang :)

i wish to put on smile :)

i had a chat with a junior earlier today. he's in inti nilai. doing foundation in engineering, jpa sponsored. just to share some thoughts here. it's about a life. a human. nothing to do with that junior actually. it's someone else's. i remembered back is school. especially being in a boarding school and it's sekolah berasrama penuh, SBP and it's one of the new schools, and it's one of the top school at that particular time, back in my school days.. and i'm sure it's still right now... the time was hard. well, i had a hard time. everyone is aiming high. i was from a girls school back in lower secondary, and the school is awesome. the school itself is a really good school. but i never had this problem, yet i still scored in my exams.

yeah yeah. back to the boarding school topic. teachers were really aiming high. everyone were expected to be a scorer. and obviously it's a lil bit stress for people like me. i was struggling to fit my self into the new environment. and yet, peoples around (the teachers especially) were pushing hard. everyone were aiming straight As. yeah. of course everyone is aiming the best! but the way they push it.

and now i realize, that thing is actually important. but straight As and flying colours actually doesn't mean anything to me. yeah. to me. not everyone. i didn't get that straight As and i really did not get the flying colours result. i wasn't a teacher's pet or any of them's fav. but i still made it. i know. i didn't even step into a university for my degree what not. okay. yeah. i've been to a matriculation centre but didn't manage to complete the course. but i'm happy that i have a good job instead. i'm not depending on anyone now to get what ever i want. isn't that a good one? isn't that what people wants in life? i'm thankful to Allah swt though for giving me such pleasure.

i got this sad news from a friend of mine. yeah. and this really happened to few of my friends. they were terminated from their college. and they were the top scorer back in school. how could that happened? how could the teachers explain? if i were to ask the teachers who pushed us so much, how are they going to explain it to me especially? my results back in school were dramatic. i failed each and every papers during the tests and exams. i'll be thankful if i were to pass. and it's just passing, not having As. It made me cried every single day especially when the results were out. but i'm now consider a successful non-scorer i should say. i question this all the time since i got the news. what on earth has the teachers told us? get straight As and you'll be "cemerlang, gemilang, terbilang". but what happened now?

it's not that i want to question the teacher's motivational talk. but, the As actually doesn't mean much now. what can the straight As do for the scorers now then? they just mean nothing. sorry teachers. i just feel that back during my time, you guys shouldn't push us so hard. especially me. you guys actually gave me a hard time. you guys actually made myself felt down. down deeper under the deep sea!!!

however, i'm thankful. today, i'm a doing what i choose to do. i'm being who i want to be. and i'm thanking all of my teachers of whatever you guys have thought me. tapi.. fikirlah balik what have you told us. the results actually doesn't mean anything to the world. i told people.. what ever your results are, at the end of the day, you are who you choose to be. the world would never ask your schooltime results, your college cgpa.. and teachers.. please don't push it too hard. it's sickening though.

well, for young readers, the good results will make you later decide who will you be. i've no doubt about that. just.. choose wisely. life's not easy. and it's not as simple as what you think :)

*cheers*

and those are some photos back in school. those were taken on the last day of school, Majlis Sireh Pulang Ke Gagang :)

hari ini...

yeah.today agak bosan. i was in the mood to blog. but i found so many interesting blogs.. by peoples i know :) yeah. actually i love to read blogs by people i know :) it brings me closer to them unnoticed. haha. yeah. this time my sri aman seniors. aih. mereka sangat comel. well.. so, be patient. wait for my next post! dozens of thoughts to be shared. maybe later today.. or maybe tomorrow.. or day after.. or next week.. :) hihi~ yeah. nothing to do since it's an uncalled up standby day. so, standing by at home.. :) reading blogs.

j.u l.y

yeah so far no updates for july. july had been a shopping month so far :)
a picnic day on the 5th of july. and some shopping in betweens until today. spent like almost RM 3k until today, since 1st july. crazy me. lots and lots of outing with wannie.. met awatiff and ika earlier of the month. that was on the 3rd of july. a dinner at tgi section 14. a lunch with aquila and capt ali ridza on the 4th at tony romas cineleisure. a shopping spree with ucu at KLCC also on the 4th. a birthday dinner for ucu in KL also on the 4th. uhh.. a well done month. :) everyday, and every other day, full of social activities :) no longer "katak bawah tempurung" for a lil while.

thanks to everyone... yeah. some photos will be uploaded soon. yeah. see.. i've no time even for my self! :) even to blog! even to post photograph.. :) but i'm loving every day of the month!

and yeah.one more.
on 3rd July : HAPPY BIRTHDAY UCU!!!! (happy belated birthday. the post is a lil bit late. but the wish was on that day right?!)

okay. these few months are full with activities. :) i'm loving my life even more! :)


*smiles and cheers to everyone*