i found out..

jarang nak jumpa kawan yang akan ada bersama kalau kita bersedih.
kesimpulannya...
kawan cuma akan ada bila kita bergembira.
because,
what i realised,
trough the time i was really down,
i was really sad,
the only people had been around me,
are the people who doesn't know i am in sorrow and darkness.
and if the people who knows my pain,
they will let me be alone.
or people who will be with me,
are the people who will ask me some favor,
for their benefits.
be it they are happy or had made me happy.
but at least those people cheer me up somehow.
the only people who will be with us when we really need accompany
are
the people who loves us.
only.
if they are friends, and no love in the friendship,
they will treat us like nobody.
other than that,
nobody cares.

am i right or wrong?
and which do i fall in?

just a thought.

i was always told to be a good girl.
always.
i was told to study hard.
be a smart girl, and that will ensure my bright future.

tapi..
as time goes on...
i can see..
that my friends who are worse than me,
who scored lesser than mine,
are experiencing a better life than mine.

how do we relate this actually?
even i scored less than the genius in school,
is now having a better life than them.
that one i am thankful of.
and i am blessed with what i am getting now.
and praying for a better ones as days goes on.

tapi..
i just don't understand.
why did parents asked their children to study so hard?
and the kids has got no life during their childhood because they are working hard
to fulfill their parents' wish.
can't they just let their kid live a normal life?

i always wanted to know
how this things work?

and i am certain
that people who drops out in school
can survive better wherever they go.
that's for sure.
because they always ended up to be a better person.
correct me if i am wrong.

wishlist.

taktau la ni wishlist yang keberapa.
with a dslr;

1. nak tour europe
2. nak japan tour
3. percutian pantai
4. mendaki gunung
5. diving
6. horseride tepi pantai

tapi...belum ada yang sukarela nak ikut. :(
sape nak ikut?

cuma

sentiasa perlu puaskan hati sendiri.
itu sahaja.

cuma nak kehidupan..
apabila malam..
setiap malam, boleh tengok bintang diatas bukit bersama pasangan hidup.

bila siang, pergi kerja,
boleh keluar rumah selewat 10 pagi
dan balik semula rumah sebelum 5 petang.

cuma itu sahaja kehidupan yang saya mahu.
cuma itu.