i have to

i have to stop procrastinating.

i have to start thinking positive.

just let people be.

just let people say what they want.

i need to achieve what i want.

my dreams.

from today onwards, i'll try my best to post the positive thoughts only. :)

let's begin a new life.

say hello to future :)

uhm

sometimes

i give up living in my very own country.

i don't know about others.

tapi, i think, it'll just be the same if i'm expact in somewhere else.

kalau pergi kedai melayu,

i'll be treated as if i don't deserve any good treatment.

literally because they thought i'm a chinese.

kalau pergi kedai cina,

i'll be treated macam kucing kurap,

because i can't speak their language.

and they know i'm not chinese.

so, basically,

malaysians are racist.

they treat people by skin color.

and i hate that.

as if i don't deserve to be treated well in my own country.

might as well i leave, and serve nations who will appreciate me. at least.

and malaysians has this kind of mentality;

hormati orang tua.

so, when someone like me (youngsters) comes into the scene,

they won't treat me good as long as there's someone else elder than me.

so people,

jangan salahkan golongan muda tak reti adab sopan.

sebab you didn't treat them with adab sopan when they were young.

therefore, they learn by that "good" example of yours.

isn't it obvious?

isn't it?

it's a sign when you just stay there,

need not compete.

because you know you'll win.

for whatever reason.

when comparing relatively;

a person who gets a car with their own hard work,

getting a posh laptops with their own efforts,

a person who gets a fabulous handphone with their own hard earn money,

getting an advanced-tech camera with their very own pay,

and they can do it on their own;

without any concern of anyone else.

yet,

still been compared and looked down by some people,

and been told,

the person who actually well equipped with hi-tech,

but with concern of others,

and the person is the winning team.

isn't it unfair?

whatever it is,

i know where i stand.

kaca mana mungkin jadi berlian.

just say what you like.

i'll work hard to stay where i am.

hey you dumb blonde!

leave the curvy skirt and wear your two-pieced-swim-wear.

living in sorrow.
that's how it is going.

just that..

just need to be respected as a human being.
just that.